Gallente Federation

Why Do I Fight?

I have spent some time away from the fleet battles lately. I have mostly been docked up, living as close to a civilian life as a capsuleer can get for a while.  I had been experiencing some burnout.  A few poor decisions I had made had resulted in some needlessly expensive ship losses.  I had broken the cardinal rule of New Eden,

EVE Online - Gallente Frigate

EVE Online – Gallente Destroyer (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

which states, don’t fly what you can’t afford to lose.

I needed some time away from fleet ops, and away from the university to reflect on myself and why it is that I fly and fight.  When I joined the Gallente Federal Naval Academy, it was never out of pure patriotism.  Sure, I took some pride in the fact that the Gallente Federation represents the only true democracy in New Eden, but, never having experienced anything else in my relatively sheltered youth, I really took this all for granted. So why was I really there?

The fact is, I had always looked up to and admired Federation Navy pilots.  Ever since I saw my uncle in his uniform for the first time, I knew that I too wanted to wear that uniform some day.  I wanted to be that hotshot with the big killboard who got all the girls. I was really there for selfish reasons.

Like I said in my first post, I was really in for a rude awakening.  Far from being a hotshot, I have yet to earn my first solo kill, and I have been pod killed more times than I can count.  I have even lost numerous ships to n0n-capsuleer opponents.  So what drives me to keep going?  What is my motivation to get back in my pod, and venture forth once more, to meet my inevitable doom?

I think maybe it’s just because I am losing my grasp on humanity.  Maybe I have just accepted the fact that this is my life now.  Kill and be killed.  Every day.  What I am really looking for is something to fight for.  Something to mean something.  Something to remind me that I was once human, and what I do still matters, or else I just become little more than a sentient piloting computer, plugged into a space craft.

While I was gone, I realized that it was the simple things that I missed the most about being a pilot.  I missed hearing the voices of my fleetmates over comms.  I missed sharing in there laughter, and having a sympathetic ear to talk to when I would loose a ship to some stupid mistake I just made, because they had all been there.  I missed the shock and awe we would inspire, when our blob fleets would suddenly spike a system.  I even missed the camaraderie and respect of our opponents.  I love it how my victim today could be my fleetmate tomorrow.  So I guess this is why I fight.  I do it for the fleet.


Introduction – From Loyalist to Pirate

It wasn’t long ago that I was roaming the halls of the Gallente Federal Naval Academy, as a brand new capsuleer, full of zeal, and naïve ideals.  I wanted to protect and serve my beloved Gallente Federation, and it’s democratic ideals.  What better way to do this than as a capsuleer, one of the immortal elite of New Eden?

Afrer just a few short weeks of training at the academy, I enlisted in the Gallente Militia, as a member of the Federal Defense Union.  I would soon be in for a rude awakening.  My first combat encounter came on my first day as a minuteman in the militia.  I was attacking an enemy complex when I was jumped by a capsuleer pirate, and quickly dispatched.  I would soon awake in a new clone, painfully aware of my inadequacy in combat.  It was then that I decided I must take a different path.

The education my government had provided me was woefully lacking.  I was completely unprepared to face my fellow capsuleers in combat.  Not wanting to play the victim, I sought out other means of learning the ins and outs of space combat.  I remembered a tip one of my classmates in the academy had given me, about a capsuleer run corporation called EVE University, and how they were the best place to go for an education as a new pilot.  I sought out the University, and, after a long application process, was eventually accepted.

I am now a sophomore in the university, with over 50 kills to my credit.  I have commanded fleets, and braved the dangers of low security, and zero security space.  I have learned much, but still have much to learn.  I now live at the university’s low-sec campus, in a system in the Placid region, called Uphallant.  I have dedicated myself full time to fleet ops with my fellow unista’s, and the hunting and killing of my fellow capsuleers.  I have left my naïve loyalties behind me, and have become the pirate, free from the constraints of the empires.